168

168 is not a number that connotes in Cantonese “Richer all the way” or a suspense thriller movie title. It’s actually the bus number I took from Woodlands Bus Terminal to Ikea.

I’ve been doing a lot of silly thing lately. For instance, taking bus from one terminal to another, spending my time on the bus reading my magazine or plainly discovering Singapore…I know what you’re thinking, what a twerp! However, that’s where I discover the bus 168 that brings me to Ikea. It wasn’t until I come across bus 168 conveniently brings me to Ikea that I wanted to make over my bedroom. The last time I design my bedroom was about 10 years ago. I feel like it’s time to make a change. I understand most people are afraid to make change but for me personally, I’m not afraid of what I’ll face, I’m more afraid to get stuck at the same place. I feel like the innate ability of human beings is afraid to make change and start all over. Thus, I question myself, why are we so unwillingly to make change?

I discover the biggest factor is fear. Fear of detaching ourselves from our comfort zone. Take for example our mobile phone, even till now, I can’t understand why most people are so attached to their mobile phone that by losing it literally means the end of the world. They’ll get so confused and lost to the extent that it disrupts their emotions and how they react in this so call unfortunate situation. People who lost their parents through AIDs and not able to have a decent meal everyday is consider most unfortunate. What does your mobile phone contains? Your amateur porn movie??

There is this sudden overwhelming emotion of not able to deal with the truth and make changes. In relationship, we’re often trapped in an unwanted situation. We complain our miserable relationships and yet reluctant to make change. Why? It’s because the attachments that we possess, the weekends you’re with your lover that occupies most of your life, the emptiness you’ll feel once you’ve broken up with your lover. It’s all because of this fear to let go that we build our life more depressing. Starting afresh, I might be a bit lost, I might not have the courage to start from scratch and rebuild my life but I do know if I stagnant myself without making effort to make change, my life will be more miserable. I know it’s not an easy task, I also know that there are times I’ll reminiscing the past. However, sun will always rise and I want to know where my life is heading and how my choice is going to bring me there.

It’s time to start all over again, regardless what kind of situation or pain you’re facing. Letting go of the past as everything happens for a wonderful purpose. How do I know? It’s because I decided to move on and discover it myself. No matter who you're, No matter what you did, No matter where you come from, You can always make change. After all, human being is a series of changes that continue perpetually…

P/S: This blog is dedicated to my 2 chums, a grace period is for you to think about your happiness, and not to dwell or ponder over your attachments.