Habit

I changed my mind today and decided that I'm nothing like I was yesterday...so I'm thinking about it. Here are some clues: I laugh out loudly - but actually I'm always fighting a wee shyness. I'm a free spirit with a knack for dancing, designing, goofing off and imaging as someone I'm not. I don’t want to be loved because I know I need love. I’m afraid to love because I know I might enjoy being hurt. I know I’ll enjoy being hurt because I covet for something that’s not mine or else why yearn for. I like freedom but don't want too much or else there could be hell to pay cause even in my irregular schedule and fiery idea. I'm really just a gentle creature of my ever changing habit...

Sick and Tired

I’m sick and tired of;

pursuing what I never once had
angry with situation that I didn’t cause
clients that don’t make payment promptly
a friend that I’ve know for a while that is money driven
acquaintances I’ve known online that are sex driven
designing while thinking of traveling around the world
thinking that one fine day I’ll be successful
anarchy around the world
what’s right and wrong
people misjudging my words and thoughts

At last, I’m so sick of tired of being sick and tired as I’ve decided to let go of all my pre conceptions of what’s mine and what belongs to others.