Defying Gravity: A Journey to Bodh Gaya

As the world embraces the cinematic adaptation of the musical Wicked, the song "Defying Gravity" has found new life and meaning for me. Its powerful message of overcoming obstacles resonates deeply with me, especially as I embark on a journey that challenges both my physical and spiritual boundaries. For those who have followed my blog, you're aware that my body presents unique challenges.

Diagnosed with aspiration, a condition where small bits of food can mistakenly enter my lungs, I live with a constant cloud of uncertainty.

Embracing Change and Courage

In the coming months, I must undergo a PEG operation, which will allow me to feed myself through a tube directly to my stomach. Yet, before that chapter begins, I have chosen to "defy my body’s gravity" and travel to Bodh Gaya, India—the place where Buddha attained enlightenment under the Bodhi tree. You might wonder why this is significant. The answer lies not in the destination itself, but in the courage it takes to get there amidst concerns and doubts.

When I revealed my decision, my friends fell into what I refer to as "concernfusion"—a blend of concern and confusion. An influx of questions regarding food safety and air quality transformed my choice into a lengthy Q&A session. I even kept my mum unaware of my plans to go to India, but I’ll eventually inform her once I arrive safely.

Despite these concerns, I sensed a calling, a gentle whisper encouraging me to take action. Up to this point, these callings have consistently guided me closer to my dharma, paving the way in my quest to comprehend the teachings of the Buddha.

There is a need for me to overcome these body or health limitations and lean into self-trust. There may be some concerns and doubts but it is important for me to stay neutral, and hopeful in my outlook so that this gives me the courage to follow my calling and do what feels right.

I simply need to be more mindful of my actions and thoughts, making the best decision regardless of the situation at hand.

As a result, although my intention was to remain in Chiang Mai at the end of the year, I took advantage of my geographical position in Thailand, where Bangkok offers direct flights to Bodh Gaya and so I booked my one-way ticket to the holiest land, which has profoundly inspired my spiritual journey on numerous occasions.

As I reflected, penning these thoughts before the trip, I felt the weight of gravity uplifting rather than defying. I need to release whatever difficulties that are holding me back.

You are all here with me on this trip

My friend Janice, reminded me before I attended the Geshe Dorje Damdul Boddhicitta retreat two years ago to take everyone along with me in spirit. Although I may be travelling solo, I hold Janice and all my beloved Dharma friends close to my heart. For those who have yet to visit Bodh Gaya and for those seeking to nurture the Bodhi Tree within, I am not alone; I carry the love and aspirations of those who dream of sitting beneath the Bodhi Tree. Any wisdom I acquire will flow back to them, creating a connection that bridges the distance between us.

May the Buddha nature within me guide my steps and help me respond with grace and wisdom to whatever challenges may arise. To everyone who seeks growth and enlightenment, remember that our journeys, though individual, are interconnected. We are all defying gravity in our own ways, striving to reach new heights.